There's so many things in my head rite now..So many problems..Yet no one can offer me a shoulder to cry on..Am I really tat bad?Well..If u want to think tat of me..I CUDNT CARE LESS..Sure It saddens me like hell,,U cud hv been sensitive yet...Suka hati ah..Thnks 4 making me cry ah! Skul has been really tough..I hv 12 essays to be handed in by tis week..Mdm Nuraini has been drivin us nuts and forever pressurisin us to read newspapers..Garner more general knowledge and push ourselves harder!We get scolded n lectured everyday while d Arabic class still hv time to hv fun n dance around in our class..I dun get it!! Sir is using Farah as some sort of moderator regarding our issues..i dont understand why he chose her..I mean we're frens but she doesnt knw d real picture unlike my class..Mangkuk was there..asal tk tanye org rapat ngan aku?Mepek kan tuu...Entahlah...Kesian sey Farah..Tk tau cite tau2 jer kene drag into d equation..Sori ah member... I just cant accept it wen ppl say I hv an ego!!Let it be known taT I hate ppl wiv egos n those who find ways 2 continue feeding their hungry egos!!I believe tat as long as u r rite..U must stand up n fight..Either vocally..actions..or in a silent killer fashion cos If u let injustice to prevail..Y bother to seek the truth??!!So pls..Dont assume I'm egoist just bcos I STAND UP FOR MY PRINCIPLES AND WAT I BELIEVE IN!! Jeff's been tryin his best to cheer me up..I feel sorry 4 him..Sanggup spend time ngan aku just to check on me wen he cud just go home n b wiv his precious angel..Eka's leaving for Taiwan tomorro before heading back to London..It was really sweet of her to make a last minute change of plans to come to Spore n visit me...Motherhood has really made her a wiser person n I'm grateful tat she's sharing her wisdom wiv me...
I really dont understand why some ppl cant tolelate my colorful vocab..Look...wen ur angry..mad..lost..depressed..frustrated..U tend to say sumtin vulgar at times 2 let some anger off ur chest..U do not say I love u wen ur mad rite..U say I hate u or sumtin like tat..At least I dont go around makin use of my mouth to buka keaiban orang.Ppl who knw me knw tat I'm a trustworthy person..So I ask..Is it wrong 4 me 2 use d F werd wen I'm really down just to lessen d burden on my chest or shud I talk sopan2 den ngumpat2 pantat orang?? THINK!!Pls try to understand ppl tat u regard ar ur frens!!Not sadden them wen they r already suffering!! Shyd went to Taufik's hse..AAARGGHHH!!Got his autograph n took pics wiv him...JELES TAU AKU!!KU PON NK JMPE DIER!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MASHITAH AND AFAD..MAY ALL UR DREAMS N WISHES COME TRUE!! I need love...I really do...Pls God...Berikanlah hambaMu ini kasih syg yg sejati..murni..hakiki...dan ABADI...AMIN!! Take care all....
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Yours Truly
Angeliza Helmsley
Know The Real Me Life Is A Never A Bed Roses But Only Idiots Lay In A Bed Of Thorns
WISHLIST
To Get A Less Stressful Yet Stable Job
To Fall Truly Madly Deeply In Love
To Always Have Enough Money To Sustain Myself And My Family (And 10 Cats!)
To Meet More Kind Selfless And Sincere ppl From All Walks of Life
To Travel The World
To Watch Celine Dion And Bon Jovi In Concert
To Watch Wrestlemania And Other WWE PPV's Live